Lover at Last Review

 Well worth the Wait…” alt=”Lover At Last (Black Dagger Brotherhood, #11)”  Quinn son of no-one has suffered a life of loneliness at the hands of his family and the Aristocrac., Finding his identity as a fighter within the Brotherhood and as Abstrux nohtrum to John he has finally found a place in there society where he feels accepted. Still feeling his life is incomplete even with the prospects of having his own family with the beautiful Chosen Layla his heart is empty, Can he give himself over to his one true love and best friend Blay since childhood, can he handle the emotional hurdles in which he will have to overcome as this is the only way he will ever feel complete. Hot Sexy page turner which will leave you in no doubt about why you love this vampire series of Sexy Black Dagger Brothers
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English Lit/ Thomas Hardy Essay

How does Hardy determine his protagonist’s lives are determined by Fate?

Tess of the d’Urberville’s ” A Pure Woman” and The Mayor of Caterbridge “The life andDeath of a Man of Character” are novels written by Thomas Hardy. First published 1886 and 1891 they were the fulfilment of the great tragic novels set in and around the rural Wessex countryside. In these novels Hardy presents a number of different themes within his novels including Fate which most often determines his proganist’s lives.

 Hardy introduces the idea of Fate with Tess of the d’Urbervilles’s in the first chapter and phase of this novel when he introduces John d’urberville, Tess’s father, who while returning from market day in Shaston by chance meets Parson Tringham. This chance meeting could be regarded as the foundation in which Tess’s fate has been decided, as the parson tells her father of the ancient and Knightly family lineage of the d’Urberville’s. This allows Hardy to use Fate as a main theme for his protagonist Tess who has not yet been introduced to us the reader. However her future has been set in motion by what seems to be a coincidental meeting, and the information given to her father would allow her parents the opportunity to look for Kinship, sending Tess off to live and work for this supposedly noble family of d’Urberville’s. ” I tried her fate in the fortune-teller, and it brought out that very thing” (Hardy, addition,1993, p.21). Tess’s mother is superstitious she puts so much faith in this book to prophesy Tess’s future, the book has told her that Tess will marry a gentleman, this is the pefect excuse to send her daughter off in search of kinship in the hope of a grand marriage.

Hardy would inject the same sence of fate within The Mayor of Casterbridge, again in the first chapter and phase but with the main protagonist himself. Michael Henchard would sell his wife and daughter to a sailor while under the influence of alcohol, the next morning when he realises the horrendous act that he has commited ” She’s gone to be sure she is gone with the sailor who bought her and Elizabeth-Jane. We walked here and i had the furmity, and rum in it and sold her”. ( Hardy addition 2003, p16). Henchard would promptly set off in search of his sold off family, stopping by a church along the way to swear an oath on the Holy Book to stay clear of alcohol for the ” space of twenty years” a year for every year lived. Eventually giving up his search he then travels on to the town of Casterbridge where he would become an influential part of the community in becoming towns Mayor. Henchard’s fate is sealed when he enters this tent in search of food for his family, he consumes many bowls of furmity that have been laced with rum, even after his wife Susan had steered him away from the alcohol knowing how her husband behaves, Fate has intervened and ensured he would get drunk.

Other examples which Hardy would use fate as a way of determining his protagonist’s fate can be seen in chapter five of  Tess of the d’Urbervilles when Tess meets Alec d’Urberville the son of the lady to which she would be working for, and who she would explain the whole tragic incident surrounding the loss of the family horse Prince which she herself felt responsible. “ I Killed him” (Hardy, addition, 1993, p.35). Unbeknown to Tess that telling him of her troubles would encourage him to write to her family in his mothers name inviting her to stay and work for them. As fate would have it Alec her supposedly noble family member would eventually be the cause of the most horrific, emotional and physical hardship she would encounter in her short life.  Alec would take advantage of Tess’s innocence by raping her resulting in her pregnancy, and although Hardy avoids examining to what extent she was compliant, by his reference to the “primal yews”, “roosting birds”, and “hopping birds” (Hardy addition, 1993, p.65). He stresses the naturalness of the event and with the wider significance the inexplicable injustice and cruelty of fate as we the readers know how and why she came to be with Alec. Although the most tragic cicumstances any young woman should encounter, she returns home to her parents unwed and with child, and then with the unfortunate death of said child which Tess, would name and baptise herself without the blessing of anyone other than her younger siblings. “sorrow I baptise thee in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost”. (Hardy addition, 1993, p.83). With this incident Hardy continues to allow us to believe that his young protagonist’s life is fated as no-one person should suffer this amount of bad luck.  Hardy shows a fighting spirit within his protagonist when she decides to travel once again to work at a dairy farm Talbothays as a milkmaid. Here we would encounter a more experienced Tess as a character who would see this as a fresh start, a new beginning and ultimately a time of happiness for her, she has taken fate into her own hands by making this journey not because she feels a sense of guilt or responsibility towards her parents, but for her own happiness and reasons.

We also see these changes with Michael Henchard in the Mayor with the introduction of Donald Farfrae, the Mayor has experienced some rough times with his corn harvest resulting in bad bread throughout the village, this being due to extremely bad weather. Donald Farfrae’s introduction to the story brings about good fortune and a solution to the Mayor’s crop troubles but Farfrae does not intend staying in Casterbridge his plans are to travel onto America. However the Mayor intends on convincing Farfrae to stay on to manage his crop buisness, he believes his appearance is a sign of fate in which he will save his yearly crops. “ For Hardy, Fate is blind, arbitrary and merciless and always brings misery, pain, sorrow and suffering in this novel”. (Hardy, addition 2003). Henchard brings his fate upon himself  as after much persuasion he convinces Farfrae to stay and employs him, this is an ironic twist of fate as one day it will be Farfrae who employs Henchard. Henchard, as a magistrate is in court the day when the woman who sold him the fumity laced with rum is on trial. This event would cause Henchard so much misery and suffering and would change his life forever.

At Talbothays Tess from Tess of the d’Urberville’s would meet new friends, people who new nothing of her past and of course the second man to enter her life Mr Angel Clare. Hardy introduces Angel as a well educated preacher’s son who takes an instant liking for Tess, but he also foreshadows their relationship, as we the reader know Angel and Tess have already met in the first few chapters of the book, when Angel and his brothers had passed through the village of Merlott on the day of the May Day Dance, Angel had stopped to dance with a young lady of the village. Tess falls in love with Angel and they eventually set a date to be married, but once again the idea that this young protagonist’s life is fated with Tess’s own guilt that she is not a Pure Woman because of her past with Alec and Sorrow, she feels this must be divulged to Angel so she writes him a letter and posts it through his door, but as fate will have it Angel completely misses the letter that has been hidded behind the door. She is hopelessly in love with Angel, and on the night of their wedding decides to confess her past to him, which proves to be one of her greatest sacrifices as Tess’s worst fear comes true, Angel cannot accept the truth of what he hears he will not accept it. “ Am I to believe this? From your manner I am to take this as true. O you cannot be out of your mind! You ought to be!”. (Hardy, addition 1993, p.199). His idealistic vision of Tess has been destroyed, and his rejection of Tess would leave her distraught and again returning to her parents without a husband while Angel himself  would leave her and travel to Brazil.

 Hardy’s final reference to Tess’s tragic life as she is hanged for her crime, the murder of Alec d’Urberville illustrates his progonist’s lives are fated, here he reveals that “justice was done, and the president of the immortals, in Aeschylean phase, has ended his sport with Tess”. ( Hardy, addition 1993, p.350). This is Hardy’s final reference to Tess’s tragic life it would seem she has simply been a game or a sport for the people around her to play out, how ironic that it should be with her recieving justice for her crimes against the very man who has caused her nothing but heartache and tragedy from the very begining, throughout this novel nothing about Tess’s life has been fair or just, it has simply been an avalanche of tragedy that has caused Tess’s fate not by her own ambition but by then actions of others.

English Lit Frustration!!!

Up untill now i have thoroughly enjoyed being back at college and English Lit, the Hardy period was a real eye opener and brought me the greatest pleasure by teaching me the enjoyment of reading proper literature as well as my every day thrill of paranormal and light reads.

Then there was the creative writing aspect of my course in which i have to be honest and say was the most exciting part of English Lit yet, I had a great time putting my imagination to work in creating a piece that was acceptable for class and could ultimately help me achieve a great grade 🙂 However what i did not expect to fall short on was the commentary! justify my own work linking it to the stimulus text has been the most agravating and frustrating part of my studies to date.

I have never found a piece of writing so difficult in my entire life, and this is really starting to get on my nerves as i seem to get this wrong no matter how hard I try, I cannot seem to find an easy way in which to expand the analysis of my own work, all I want to do is throw this laptop through the window and be done with it as its beginning to drive me crazy……

Now i have until the end of halfterm to submit this and right now it seems to be impossible as i cant find the words which i need, so here is hoping I can achieve this without causing any serious damage to my poor laptop!

Happy Burns day!!

Address to the Haggis

Fair fa’ your honest, sonsie face,
Great chieftain o’ the puddin-race!
Aboon them a’ ye tak your place,
Painch, tripe, or thairm:
Weel are ye wordy of a grace
As lang’s my arm.
The groaning trencher there ye fill,
Your hurdies like a distant hill,
Your pin wad help to mend a mill
In time o’ need,
While thro’ your pores the dews distil
Like amber bead.

His knife see rustic Labour dight,
An’ cut ye up wi’ ready slight,
Trenching your gushing entrails bright
Like onie ditch;
And then, O what a glorious sight,
Warm-reekin, rich!

Then, horn for horn, they strech an’ strive:
Deil tak the hindmost! on they drive,
Till a’ their weel-swall’d kytes belyve,
Are bent like drums;
Then auld Guidman, maist like to rive,
‘Bethankit!’ hums.

Is there that owre his French ragout
Or olio that wad staw a sow,
Or fricassee wad mak her spew
Wi’ perfect sconner,
Looks down wi’ sneering, scornfu’ view
On sic a dinner?

Poor devil! see him owre his trash,
As feckless as a wither’d rash,
His spindle shank, a guid whip-lash,
His nieve a nit;
Thro’ bluidy flood or field to dash,
O how unfit!

But mark the Rustic, haggis-fed,
The trembling earth resounds his tread.
Clap in his walie nieve a blade,
He’ll make it whissle;
An’ legs, an’ arms, an’ heads will sned,
Like taps o’ thrissle.

Ye Pow’rs wha mak mankind your care,
And dish them out their bill o ‘fare,
Auld Scotland wants nae skinking ware
That jaups in luggies;
But, if ye wish her gratefu’ prayer,
Gie her a Haggis!

Robert Burns

Back to the Studies!!

Im so glad to be back at college, back to what I love, English Literature 🙂 We had to pick which books would inspire us for our creative writing piece over the xmas holidays, and as I have said my choices were the Catcher in the Rye and The Outsiders, as these books were an escapism from reality for me as a teenager I thought why not go over the books that inspired me as a child and see what kind of inspiration I could find within them as an adult.

Well im so pleased to say that even I was a little surprised at how much reading these books again would inspire the writer within me, I attended dance class on wednesday night came home and it was like someone had just flipped that creative switch within me on, when I began typing I could not stop, funny that eh!! how something like a dance class can activate what I was begining to worry wasn’t there.

I had forgotten how much fun it could be, I just relaxed and let the words flow onto the page, and before I new it, there was one hundred words over what I needed 🙂 but this meant having to go over what was written and obviously take these one hundred words out, leaving me a little disheartend so rather than handing in a short story Ive realised I could use these extra words and make mine a larger piece of work, and now I have myself the first chapter of what could possibly be an on going piece of work for the future.

I am rather excited about this as at the start of the term I was begining to wonder if maybe i’d gotten myself into something that I wasn’t quite ready for, even although Ive kept notes and journals throughout the years jotting down everything, it was a big step for me to return to education as I never considered myself to be any good, all I new was I had a passion for reading and writing 🙂 now the lack of self confidence has been blown right out of the water leaving me wanting to study and educate myself more. I am really excited about the future now and my two beautiful daughters are proud of what there mum is achieving which leaves me with such a satisfied smile on my face everytime I pick up my notebook and get to work as i can achieve my dreams even as an adult. 🙂

The Catcher in the Rye!!

It’s a New Year and ive had to get back into my studies, especially after a fantastic xmas with my family and friends. So now i find myself glued to the Catcher in the Rye and chuckling at Holdens adventure’s, i mean this guy’s view on people places and things in his life are something else, and i think as an adult i can appreciate it a little more.  I have picked this book and The Outsiders as part of my creative writing phase in English Lit, the reason i have chosen these books, are because they had such a huge impact on me growing up and i wanted to revisit them as an adult to find out what kind of impact they would have on me now. I am half way through it  now and really enjoying my trip down memory lane while reading it so i will let you know exactly how i get on towards the end…:) happy reading!!

New Year!!

So now the Xmas festivities are finally over ive had a much needed chance to catch up on so many good easy reads…oh how ive missed my book marathons 🙂  I was given The Rock Chick series over christmas and i must say i have thoroughly enjoyed sinking my teeth into these hot sexy reads, so much so that ive been lucky to get 6hours of sleep each night, what can i say they are hot action packed easy reads, just what i need during my English Lit xmas holiday’s…

I have made a start on my creative writing, but unfortunately find myself being easily distracted due to the joy’s of my daughter’s xmas cheer and board games oh and of course dance central 🙂  great excuse if you ask me… However this weekend is out with the old and in with the new household cleanout, you see being a good old fashioned Scots girl we have very strict traditions we must adhere to 🙂 ie: the household cleanout ready for the Newyear and the much antisipated family gathering of first footing and alcohol aplenty, this i cannot wait for as this year again its party at my brothers house which means plenty of booze and a right good chuckle with the xbox kinect, Oh how i do enjoy bringing in the bells with family and friends what a very special way to start your new year.

This will most likely be my last posting of 2012 before the madness of the Newyear begins so i would like to wish everyone A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR and ALL THE BEST FOR 2013..


Merry Xmas!!

well its been quite a hectic week, between the running about to make sure all my xmas shopping is done, the wrapping all the gifts, the xmas school parties, and of course our long awaited xmas dance show were all the kids get to show all the parents, grandparents and family what they have achieved throughout the year so all in all its been an extremely productive week 🙂

Today however i have had such a lazy relaxing day which has been well needed, and a wee break from college means that i get to indulge myself in some light reading over the holiday’s allowing me to catch up on all the latest novels in which i have so missed over the past few months of study and just before the last minute rush of food,kids and excitement really begins. So before i go and enjoy these festive holidays with my family and friends.

I would like to wish everyone A very Merry Christmas and All the Best for this New year ahead of us.

creative writing!!

So now we are coming up to the Christmas break and with my Hardy phase almost complete, we are beginning to look at the creative writing side of English Literature which i am so excited about ;). I mean its not often that you get to write what you want to and go into great detail, where someone is actually paying attention to what you have written now is it?

Anyway i was online lastnight looking for a good book, ( no let me rephrase that) i was looking for a GREAT book and Author someone who would inspire me and someone who would give me that creative kick!! the problem is that i found hundreds of books that i thoroughly enjoyed reading throughout the years that i got myself lost in the first chapters of so many of them. lol

As you can imagine i got myself caught up in the (Oh ive not read this book for years way of thinking and actually never found the one piece of literature that would just jump out at me with the inspiration and creativeness that i am looking for, so its back to the drawing board i must go!

Today however i went through my computer to see what literature i had there, as ive said many times i have loads of easy reads as that is the sort of book i enjoy mostly. But having read a few classics now find myself wanting NO craving!! the older more aspirational and classical stories to escape within, and what do i find in a folder long forgotten? Three of my most favourite teenage novels to date; The Catcher in the Rye, To Kill a mockingbird and The outsiders. I mean WOW why not return to my most cherished reads as a teenager to read and then to write a creative piece around.

Now i just have  the task of re-reading all three and deciding which one of these novels will inspire the adult in me to write an amazing creative piece…JOB DONE 🙂


Learning Thomas Hardy Continued!!

Well i have to be honest and firstly say how proud i am of myself  🙂 I have now gotten 760 words for my first major essay in English Literature and still have two weeks until it has to handed in… GO ME!!!

Now it has’nt been an easy process as i have had to copy cut and paste numorous times finding my intro the hardest place to start 🙂 so i decide just to keep typing and see were it would take me, WOW what a lot of rot i had managed to type  as well as some very good writing if i dont say so myself…. Dont get me wrong i still have so much rearranging to do but can at last see a light at the end of my literature tunnel.